my anxiety has me by the ponytail
so much so
that after pacing the upstairs hallway
taking two showers and a bath
i finally get down to it
and take the pill i have stuffed into my old lady wallet
that i begged from a coworker on Friday

and now, all that i can think of
is that I am wasting
a perfectly good calm
on sitting at home

YOU SHOULD GO OUT AND SPEND THIS CALM
ON SOMEONE WHO WOULD APPRECIATE IT,
says my brain

obviously, this medicine is really doing the trick